Crazy Dream

More stupid than crazy, but whatever. Nobody cared except for one person who cared ambivalently or partially or inconsistently or out of guilt or for mixed reasons, but not just to care about me. I feel so alone in this world that even the dreams have me reliving abandonment and confusion over why it keeps happening to me so suddenly. Why do I keep trusting people. Why don't I see it coming. I understand how weaker minds without a sense of self or write and wrong and some delusional belief in some reward after death can become serial killers or mass murderers. The human mind is so stupid at this stage of development.

I wonder why I continue to care.

No less feel good.

Narf :)