Still Awake, Why?

The last few lackluster entries demonstrate well how tired I am, how unmotivated and burnt I am, and then this shows me how sad I am inside. Self-doubt burps and farts in these so very tired times when I just feel like giving up because I am too tired to care. Deep down I know I am fine, secure, and happier than anyone I know to be alive. Deep down I know I care infinitely, too much to handle sometimes, and I am simply turned off, resting, depressed by the world as it is, and finding no one who sees what I see, feels what I feel, knows what I know... awareness is such a very lonely experience.

Maybe I'll have some orange soda and pretzels or something.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day.

Narf :)